Around this time last month I realized that, “Wow, Thanksgiving is almost here…”. I looked back upon a post around the same time a year before- it was the last post I wrote before moving back to New York.
Last month I was crazy stressed, working 3 jobs, taking classes and commuting 12+ hours weekly. I barely knew how to take a breath- I was constantly in a panic about what needed to be done and how I had no time to do anything. It was around this time last month that I found that because of work I wasn’t going to be able to see my family for Thanksgiving.
The one salvation I have been holding onto since the month before when my crazy self had decided to take on this extra work, was gone. I was devastated and when I looked back on my post from the year before, I knew that I had to make a change. Immediately.
And then I got into a car accident the Sunday before Thanksgiving.
While no one was seriously injured, I ended up with a concussion so even if I had been free to visit family for the holiday, between the car and the concussion, I couldn’t have driven there. Mr. C and I spent the few days off (first 3 days I had really had off in a month) relaxing in the apartment and watching Jessica Jones. His mom was able to pick us up and take us to his aunt’s house for Thanksgiving. I made fresh rolls and cranberry sauce to bring.
I guess it was the final wake up call for me. I gave notice at work and made my mind up.
Mr. C and I will finally and officially be leaving the city and moving to Maryland. To make things more final, our lease is up in January and we have told the landlords we won’t be renewing and I registered for classes at the local community college in Maryland- the final two classes I need before I can go to graduate school.
These past few months have been hard for me and I’ve really tested my limits on how far I can push myself. I’ve loved each thing I’ve been doing but I’ve been doing way too many things. Through this process I’ve learned what my limits are and how I need to prioritize and make decisions on those priorities- I can’t keep adding things to what I do.
With the holidays, finishing work and class and moving in January, things will still be a little crazy, but I’m feeling hopeful.
We are a little worried, but are looking forward to going to Maryland. When I left last time, I knew I didn’t want to go. I only spent a year in Southern Maryland and while it took me a few months to get settled and past the “culture shock” (I was a snob) I realized that I somehow left a part of myself there.
While we can’t buy a house until we know where I will be for graduate school, I still have visions of a slower life with a yard and raising chickens and bees in the back. Until then, I can still dream.
I look forward to seeing more of you soon and have exciting things planned for next year on the blog!